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これって・・・

2006-02-28T20:55:00.001-05:00

これって日本語いけるんかな？行けたらおもろいよなあ・・・笑。

こんなん誰が見るねん・・・。

What I found out from reading blogs that I have posted since September.

2005-12-08T12:59:00.000-05:00

The first thing is that my English. I improved my English skill in (or outside of) this blogging, and I was upset when I read the posts that I wrote for 3 months. I do not want to read them actually. They sound so childrish and even I don't understand what the author wants to say....

This blogg also helped me understand myself a lot. I posted my concerns when I was in trouble. Although I did not specify what my problems were(since this is blogging), I certainly got to know why I was concerned and could develop my thoughts. This blog did help me out of the spiral of concerns.

Finally, I got to know some people online when I was in trouble and posting my concerns. They were always kind to me and helped me realize how to solve the problems that I had. I thought this blog world was a strange, wierd and mean world, where I could not express myself, but it was not true. I can talk about myself in this world.

This is why I appreciate that I had an oppotunity to start blogging in this class.

Who Stays in My Room?

2005-12-05T22:02:00.000-05:00

One of my best friends finished schooling here and went back to her home country a few days ago.

It is sad but not too bad any more because this is not the first time that I loose someone close. I just remember good memories with her, like breakfast that I always ate with her and the nights that I studied with her.

As an international student, I often get to know people from outside of the U.S. as well. It might sound good that I have many friends over the world, but at the same time that means that I cannot meet them easily after we go home.

I have said good-bye to many people who I liked, and who liked me as well. And it is just sad and hurts because when some one leaves you, you loose a part of yourself, where the person used to dominate. The part you lost is calling the person.

We meet many people in our life, and all of them must leave eventually.

There is a room which have two doors. When we get to know someone, he or she comes in our room though one of the doors. We have good time together in the room, but when the time comes, they have to leave though the other door. They never can come into again after they left from the door of farewell.

I hope some one stays in my room. I don't know, but maybe I am being too reluctant to keep friends.

But forgive me now. I don't want to hurt myself by loving someone too much and leaving the person.

Dance Dance Dance

2005-11-27T17:52:00.000-05:00

Well, I hope everyone had a great thanksgiving day.

I want to thank for this holiday, a half since we don't celebrate thanksgiving in Japan and it was totally "Thanks giving" for me, and a harf because it was so exciting that it made me feel like studying.

I was in NYC. I went to see the Macy's parade, the Statue of Liberty and so on. That was just ok for me; they were just sightseeing places anyway.I want to thank for artistic aspects of NYC.

I went to Metropolitan Museum, Although I have been there several times, still that place enchants me. It is huge, and you always have to decide what you are going to see before you go there.

I chose to see modern art this time.

I found some pieces of my favorite artist, Joan Miro. His paintings are awesome; most of them are abstract, and I have no clue where objects in the picture come from. They are always full of vivid colors, which he uses contrasively and expand the world of his pictures. There is move in the pitcure. However, there is conherence in the pitctures. There is silence.

These silence and move in the same picture drive me crazy. How does he achieve to put these contradict factors into one picture???

I was watching the same picture of him for almost 30 minites. I thought I talked to the artist.

In the daydream with him, he was working on a piece. I asked him why he could draw like that. He told me that it was a piece of cake and showed me how to. Then he took a pen, and without thinking, he started drawing. Objects naturally came out from the tip of his pen and sit on paper.

He told me that the important thing is to dance. Let your body dance. Let your pen dance. Let your brain dance. Dance dance, and dance, so that your experience and creativeness come out together with steps.

He said his dance was sometimes slow but sometimes rapid. That is why his paintings have silence and movements.

I want to be like him. I want to be a person who can have movements and silence at the same time. And I thought it was the time for me to study in order to accumulate some experience to my empty brain.

Dance dance, and dance.

Motivation 100%

2005-11-22T03:26:00.000-05:00

At the beginning of Thanksgiving Yay

My Future

2005-11-22T03:16:00.000-05:00

I was thinking what to do as my career after graduation. Here are two of them.

1. I want to establish "Asian Union."

I want to make a bound in Asia, pretty much like EU.
This will proceed peace in the region, and less developed countries will get profit from it.

2. I want to prevail peace in the countires which does not have it in the territory. As a Japanese who has had peace since the birth, I do not think it is fair that the place of birth determines whether a person can enjoy peace or not.

The method would be "Peace Education," which tries to stop the cycle of hatred and revenge. I want to give peace a power, and power to the people who love peace. Only people's power can change the world.

Sounds like a plan, doesn't it?

Racial discrimination

2005-11-14T22:59:00.000-05:00

Riots have been prevailed in France since last October. Those who riot are the young immigrants or their descendants who have been suffered from unemployment. The unemployment rate of the young, aged from 15 to 25 in France is 23%, which means one of four young people are unemployed. That's a lot.

I was thinking about my French friends. As an international student, I am rather get to know students from outside of the U.S. than American students.

I talked to her online a week ago. I met this French girl here; she used to go to Keene State. I remember that when we were talking, she said she was having a hard time getting a job in France. I did not think why so at that time, but maybe that is because her parents are immigrants.

My role model now is also a French guy. He is so cool. I met him in Berkeley, California. He calls Samuel Huntington a racist. He loves art and always talks about it when he drinks. He is 27 years old.

I remember he said he also had a hard time getting a job in France because he is a descendant of immigrants. He said some company's personnel people saw his race and said no.

Now I feel the riots In France closer to me because I have these friends there. It is unworthy thing that a person is judged by their race, sex, color of skin, opinions, characters and nationality. And I hope things get better there.

p.s. Here I predict that in 20 years, racial problems will be a problem in Japan.

My future view is this;
1. North Korea collapses, or unification of the North and South succeeds.
2. People in North go South to seek jobs.
3. However, the systems in South Korea of taking them as citizens are not yet ready.
4. A lot of people in Korea escape to Japan.
5. Racial problems between Korean and Japanese occur in Japan.

Japan has to prepare the systems for accepting refugees and immigrants.

Hey guys! This is who I am! Yey!! Hahaha...

2005-11-05T23:36:00.000-05:00

I am writing an essay for transfer to another university. I have to write about myself, and I got stuck. I don't know what to write.

This feeling is the same as when I have to introduce myself.

You might have had experience that you had to stand up and introduce yourself in front of other students in the beginning of semester or whatever. I can't do that. I can not find any legitimacy in introduing myself.

A question that I always have for introducing myself is this; "Do I understand or perceive myself correctly?" The image of myself that I perceive must be distorted in favor of myself, and I can never understand who actually I am.
When I talk about who I am, my subjective perception always comes together, and more I talk about myself, more the explanation gets doubtful. It sounds too good to be true.

So when I introduce myself, I feel weird just like when I am listenning to my voice that I have recorded. The voice does not sound like mine but somebody else's.

Then, back to the essay that I have to write about myself, what am I supposed to write?
"I am a great person who can always think of others. I would like to use my talent to help people..." like this?
or "I am a radical person who can stimulate people in your university, so it is beneficial for your university to have me as a graduate." like this?

HAHA, it's great that I can say anything without the truth. I am not great nor radical at all. I am narrow-minded and shy.

What should I write?.... I don't know, but I have to write this anyway...

How much is this?

2005-10-30T00:10:00.000-04:00

After the Hurricane, there is a rapid rise of oil price, and drivers are paying more. Looks like everyone got in trouble because of that.

However... there are some who got profits from the rise of oil price... Guess who...

The....

answer....

is...

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The OIL COMPANIES!!!!!!

According to USA today, the amounts of profits the oil companies got in this three-month period are..

Exxon Mobil 9.9 billion
Royal Dutch Shell 9 billion
BP 6.5 billion
Chevron Texaco 3.5 billion

The total sum of these figures is $27.9 billion!! ($27,900,000,000!!)

I dunno what this means dude...

Something is wrong... Look at the people who are suffering now in New Orleans, Latin America, Africa, and middle east!

This is the webpage that I read.

http://www.usatoday.com/money/economy/2005-10-28-oil-profits_x.htm

China, Korea and Japan

2005-10-30T00:00:00.000-04:00

ok, then, now I write what I want to write...

I was thinking about relationship among China, Korea, and Japan. These three countries have had a historically close relationship, and now each of them has nationalism and sometimes hatred against the other.

Namely, Chinese had huge and many demonsstrations against Japan, as well as Korean. Mostly, they claim against Japanese occupation over Korean and Chinese land during its colonial time, problems of comfort women, Nanjing, and the war shrine, which the present prime minister of Japan has been keeping to go as a custom. All in all, these resentments are accumulated, and now Japan is being blamed for not to apology to those countries we suffered during the World War II.

As a Japanese and international relations major, I am interested in this problem.

Our --Chinese, Korean, and Japanese-- good relationship is inevitable for the growth of the east Asian region.

I was researching on why these hatreds emerge after 60 years and where they come from.

This is one of the interpretations of the situation; politicians use these nationalism to lead the mass population to the desired destination.

Chinese and Korean governments, which are not doing well, don't want their populations to critic their government.

On the other hand, Japanese prime minister keeps going to the war shrine, which worships people who actually led the war, because he wants to get votes from his support basis, which are the families of the war dead.

So the purpose of us fighting is all about political benefits.

I don't know if this is true or not, but if we fighting for our politicians and for their positions, we are idiots, aren't we?

I want to be as neutral as I can, and if there is any fault of mine, please point it out. I will think about it.

Love and Peace

Can't Sleep!!!

2005-10-20T03:51:00.000-04:00

I always go to bed late around 3:00 am in the morinig, but because I did not feel like writing a paper due tomorrow tonight and decided to do it tomorrow morning, I went to bed ealier at 12:00...

BUT I CAN'T SLEEP!!!

I was in bed and thinking about silly things.

First, I though about a girl who I used to like when I was a junior high school kid. I thought about swimming school that she used to go. I did not like swimming, but I asked my mom to allow me to go there. She said no because the tuition was expensive and suggested me to go another swiming school. She did not understand my point. I just wanted to see the girl there and have a couple of sophisticated and intelligent conversation with her after the swimming lessons.
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OK. It's not true. to be honest, I wanted to see her in swimming costume. (Yes I was (or am...) a pervert.) I envied the girl's swimming coach so badly. I imagined that the coach, who I never knew, touched her legs to teach how to make good movement or whatever and pulled hands to teach how to make strokes.

I remembered these memories and laughed at myself a little bit.

Then I wondered where she is now. Maybe she is in school attending a class at this exact time.

Then, my interest came to the paper that I have to write, but I did not think about it now.

And finally I came to thing about this blog.

I kind of liked writing this blog when mine was elected for the blog of the week. Honestly, I spend sort of long time to post it, and maybe the prize meant that my thoughts or idea were understood and approved by many people.

But as I continued taking the prizes, even though I am so glad to take it, I became not too happy about writing here. Every time I post, I have to think something funny, interesting or academic.

And this idea came to my mind. AM I ENJOYING THIS THING???

I am a pierrot, who can't do what I want to, and do whatever people want me to do. I often understand what people want me to do. And for this time, too, I got to know what to write to make people fun.

But I am NOT writing for myself even though this is MY page My online journal.

For me, writing something must always be for myself. I write for myself because I don't speak so well in both Japanese and English, and writing has been only the way that I can express myself. I must write everything for myself, otherwise I will die with lack of expressing myself.

So here I declare. I do my best to write what I want to write even for this blog.

OK. It is 3:47 and I have to write for the paper that we have due tomorrow. I have to sleep, otherwises I will die with lack of sleep.

GOOD NIGHT!

A Note from Today

2005-10-17T21:11:00.000-04:00

I am incomplete as a person. I make mistakes because I am unfinished. At the age of 20, I have made so many mistakes that I can not be too sorry to people who I hurt.

Every time I make such a mistake, I feel bad and think that I will never let it happen again. I have to learn from mistakes that I have made.

Yet most of the time I make the same kind of mistakes again, because I am incomplete and stupid.

When it happens, I despise myself. I begin to hate myself. If I don't grow up, why do I live?

Then I think strongly that I will never do that again.

Perhaps I might make the same mistake again, but there, I believe, is always a progress. And when I find myself in a progress, I can love myself again.

I am saying this because I hurt a girl that I met over the summer.

We had a good time together. The thing is that I knew that I did not love her.

And every morning that I found her sleeping next to me, I was like "why are you here? Get your clothes and go to your bed!!" Of course I did not say that to her, but I was so sorry to her that the idea came to my mind. But I can not lie to myself and love her!!

Then, why did I do that thing? I don't know! That's the mystery of guys... We have endless desire for women...

And you know what? This thing ALWAYS happens.

OTL

(↑This is Japanese sort of smile-mark. It is a person who failed something. "O" is his head, "T" is his body and hand, and "L" is his legs.)

I Fell in Love.

2005-10-13T01:26:00.000-04:00

I fell in love with a girl. It is shocking; I never thought this could happen. When I saw her at the restaurant, it was love at first sight. She is not aware of me, but I know pretty much everything about her.

I like her black eyes. I know how they shine and how they talk in silence.

I like her hair. I know how soft it is and how sweet it smells.

I like her fingers. They are thin and delicate. She puts one of her fingers on her temple when she thinks. That gives me the impression that she is smart.

I like her shape. She is thin and has beautiful brown skin.

She is thirteen years old.

She can sense people's feelings. It is hard for her to deal with this gift, since sometimes sadness, jealousy and anger are heavy burden. She is too genuine and pure to live in this cruel world.

She hates to be alone, but she does not know how to make friends.

Her name is Yuki, which means snow in Japanese.

Like snow, she disappeared yesterday. I know she will not show up again. I am sad.

To tell you the truth, she is a character of a book. She only exists in it, and she will never be real.

But I did fall in love with her, and I still love her.

When I read the book, I could look into her eyes, smell her hair and touch her fingers. When she spoke her story with crying, I wanted to hug her and say there is no worry. I would have taken care of her and got rid of all of the evils around her.

I am so sad because she dies in the end. I am a broken heart. Why does love always have to be like this?

Maybe I am a fool.

My Mom and Flowers

2005-10-03T21:41:00.000-04:00

I gave some flowers to one of my friends, who had her birthday. I gave her lilies. She was so happy, and she hugged and kissed me so many times. Since I am Japanese, and since we don't have this culture of kissing and hugging each other between friends, I got embarrassed a little bit and escaped from her intense gratitude.

In terms of flowers, girls are not too smart.

To tell you the truth, those flowers were not expensive, and I bought them from Shaws, which is next to our college. I don't know why girls love flowers too much. Please give me the answer which you reason by psychological, historical, or whatever evidence. I just concluded that girls are not too smart when it comes to receiving flowers. estimate that girls become excited and simultaneously fool when someone gives flowers to them...

I use this tip for my mom, too.

I don't want to trouble thinking what to give to her every birthday and mothers' day. So I always buy some flowers to her. I don't even write a card. Just give flowers, and it is done. And she is happy. In this situation her satisfaction is what I want, right? hahaha.

Hmmm. I miss my mom a bit now because I though about her. I have not met her for almost a year because I am an international student in the U.S. and my mom is in Japan. I miss my father and younger brother too, but I miss my mom most.

When I went back to Japan last time, I didn't talk to my mom so much because I always went out with my friends. Now I want to talk to her rather than to my friends.
She cooked my favorite food for me 5 times within a month of my stay home. However, I was so bad and ate only 2 times or so because I ate out with my friends all the time. If she should die now, I must think badly that I should have eaten the food she cooked.

I swear now that next time I go back home, I won't miss eating the favorite food every time she cooks. And I talk to her as much as I can.

Yes I am such a momma's boy! Mommy!!! Hahaha.

Forget!

2005-09-27T00:22:00.000-04:00

I have been posting about the same thing, evolution of human beings, i.e. people tend to forget things they had in the past, and by abandoning these memories they evolve and make themselves better.
However, I thought if it is true, it was so mean and sad, because it means they don't appreciate the things they had, including people who left you, or died. And I was in a kind of depression because of this "discovery."

However, I found out an idea to break through this disappointing discovery. My answer id that the fact that you live is the most important thing.

As I mentioned above, you evolve by forgetting or leaving things they loved. It may sound sad and irresponsible. However, now, the presence of yourself is the most important thing. Although people forget things, memories or lessons they had shape themselves into a new living which is affected with these lessons and memories. In a way, if you live in a life full of memories, you are more likely to live in a better life because you have got a lot of tips of living from the people or things they had.

So you don't feel sorry to forgetting things you had. Even though you totally forgot a particular memory, you surely have lessons from it within yourself. You just can not recall it. Moreover, although you live in a better way than you used to live with memories before you forgot them, I would say that you still appreciate the memories. Your memories has shaped you to live in a better way.

What is more interesting is that you also pass things to the next person. You give your children what you leaned from your mom. You can give your girlfriend what you have leaned from your best friend. That sort of thing.
And impressively, it occurs without any form of preaching or teaching. If you live, you affect people.

Then, my answer is that;

forgetting something is sad, but you learned something from it. And surely you give it to others. If you live, you learn something and you affect other people. And this chain makes the species of human beings better, and bring them to higher level of sophistication.

I have been in a kind of depression. But I found out this, and now I feel much better. As a matter of fact, I am getting bored with being depressed.

Death and Rebirth

2005-09-19T20:30:00.000-04:00

I just noticed that Murakami Haruki, who is a famous Japanese writer, answered to this question of why people die.

In "Norwegian Wood," he said, "People die because we are evolving. Generations alternate because an individual can't endure under the dynamics of evolution."

I like this idea.

The things past give us something even though we forget them. It is not the matter of how we remember things, but it is how we are left.

And I think this idea corresponds with the idea of rebirth, but I can not figure out how to relate these two.

I am writing things and revising them over and over again. This topic is getting complicated and I cannot handle it any further right now.

Although I don't feel right to leave publishing things messed up like this, I will just wait and see what is going to ring a bell in my head. However, I certainly got a key to open this door, which started with depression a week before.

What evolution means to us.

2005-09-19T20:02:00.000-04:00

I considered evolution, which brings change to all of the things in the world, and I wrote my idea to this blog. Changing is one of the principles of this universe, and by changing, we can select what suits for the new circumstances. Changing purifies things toward the total sophistication.

In the process of changing, we basically abandon things which are not important, or necessary to the new circumstances. We leave only things that we need.

However, isn't it sad?

One of my friends is always telling me that we human beings forget things anyway. We forget so many things to adjust ourselves to to change, or to live.

Love is a good example of this. When we are in love, we talk about something like "forever love (which I laugh a lot when I hear, anyway)." But when we break up, we have to forget the person who used be in love with and the memories, feelings and love that you had with him or her. Maybe some people don't want to forget. However, as time goes by, you tend to forget the old days, and someday happen to meet someone else who you are going to be in love with.

However, isn't that sad? Maybe forgetting is one of the parts of changing, or evolution, which is a principle of the world, but we are human beings who feel, cry, laugh and grow by things we appreciated.

I don't want to forget the sweet days that I had with my ex-girlfriend. Or I don't want to forget memories with my grandpa who died 6 years ago. I want to remember, or in other words, keep everything that I had in the past with me, and appreciate them.

Evolution is sad. And it comes although we don't want it to.

My paper topic (If you give me advice or suggestions on this, I will appreciate your help a lot!)

2005-09-14T23:10:00.000-04:00

If you imagine a picture of a Latin American amigo, how do you find him? Isn’t he smiling? He must be speaking with a big, friendly voice and laughing so loud. As you can see from this picture, we think that Latin American people are inherently happy. I assume that this typical picture of Latin American people is a compliment for them although I don’t want to be offensive to the people from Latin American countries.

Now think about this. How is a picture of us? As I am from Japan, I imagine a picture of busyness, tired and unhappy faces of office workers. And I think this picture can be applied to many people in developed countries.

Why do Latin American people live so happily? And why do we have to live unhappily? This is a question I had when I went to California. I met a lot of Latin American amigos there, and notably, my roommate was a Mexican. We got along well and had a lot of fun together, including talking, having dinner together, and of course, drinking. He was nice. I loved him as a friend, and I am surely going to Mexico to visit him soon.

Then my interest for Latin American cultures sparked. I am interested in not only people there but also the cultures which make these happy people.

I am thinking to research on the field of Latin American music, lives, habits, and language. And from these aspects I would like to guess why people are happy there. Second, I am going to refer to what could define happiness, knowing the cultural differences of Latin America, Japan, and hopefully the U.S. Moreover, knowing what the key to live happily like a Mexican is, I would like to prescribe notes of how to live happily like Latin American people.

Finally, I will mention politics of Latin American countries, and how it affects people. As a political science major, I am interested in this field a lot. To me, it looks like most the politics there is corrupted. However, people seem to live happily under the hardship.

In the future, I want to work as an ambassador, and I am interested in Latin American countries to work for. I hope this paper is going to help me think about my future.

What do you think is the most beautiful thing in the world?

2005-09-13T01:18:00.000-04:00

What is the most beautiful thing in the world? There are so many answers, but my answer is the fact that world is changing. The world which possess a potential of change. Since the world has the potential, there is evolution, which allows itself to advance toward the future. If the evolution is done (although it will never be finished), there will be a deeper sophistication than before. And in other words, the world has to change in order to survive.

You can see that potential, which allows things change, in every field of studies. Think about biology, chemistry, history, politics, literature. Nothing can stay at one place. Everything changes.

And the potential is in us, too. We are also changing. What we used to be yesterday is not what we are today. The chemical compounds which organized our thinking now are not the same as the ones we will have tomorrow. We always have potential to change ourselves, including relationship with other people and life. We, who are changing are also beautiful like this world.

Recently I have been in a sort of depression, something that I define is sadness. Sadness of lost of people who were important to me, feelings of being isolated and suspicion of the place where I am, i.e. I don't know if I am at the right place where I should be in this time of my life. (Oh this is so-called a blog-world and I can't tell everything here...)

I want to apply this idea of changing, which I noted before, to my situation right now. I believe that I can change myself because this world is consist of this potential of changing, and that is why this world is so beautiful. If I could change, that would mean that I have done something beautiful, and that may bring to deeper sophistication. I want to fight against this problem.

Ah, nothing is so bad.

My favorite blogs

2005-09-06T12:56:00.000-04:00

I like this blog. The pictures there make me peaceful.
http://blueridgeblog.blogs.com/blue_ridge_blog/

I am interested in this blog. As an international student, I am always faced to language. People live with language, and it is so fun if you can talk other peoples' languages and communicate with them.
http://www.languagehat.com/

http://www.dangerouslogic.com/blog/
This person thinks in a cool way..

I Have Never Been to the Moon

2005-09-05T21:13:00.000-04:00

I Have Never Been to the Moon.

I saw a movie called Apollo 13. This movie is about astronauts and Houston crews who launched a space ship and tried to reach the moon, after the success of Apollo 13 with Edwin H Armstrong, who landed on the moon as the first human being in 1969.

There are two scenes that I like. One is when he is on the earth, Jim Lovell, who is one of the three astronauts, sees the moon and cover it with his thumb of his right hand, with closing his left eye. When he gets close to the moon, he sees the earth and does the same thing; closes his left eye and cover the earth with his thumb of right hand. Doing so, he compares the moon and the earth.

I always want to go to the moon like him. It is not because I like fancy stuff, but because I want to understand the earth. There is a Japanese proverb which is "if you only see a leaf, you don't understand the tree which the leaf is tagged. If you only see the tree, you don't understand the forest which the tree is in." This basically tells you that you must not focus on only small thing. You have to see the entire thing so that you can understand better not only the whole thing but also a small thing. (By the way, if you want to know this Samurai proverb more, read the comic book named Vagabond by Naohisa Inoue. This is an awesome book even though teachers might hate it because it is a comic. I am sure that there are English editions.)

I want to go to the moon to see the entire earth and understand it. If I see the entire earth from the moon, I might be able to understand what is going on the earth.

There is another story concerning with watching the entire world. This is from a diary of an astronauts, who went to the space. He watched other crews and told that, "on the first day, every one pointed at the country where each of them was from. On the second day, every one pointed at the continent where each of them came from. However, on the third day, every one was silent. They didn't point at anything. They were just watching the earth." He then maintains that every one on the space ship realized they all came from one place, the earth. If we go to the space and watch the earth from there, we can understand the principle, which we all are human beings who live on the same place, within only three days.

There are so many conflicts are going on the earth. People hate each other only because their colors of skin are different, their languages are different, or their home countries are different. Say, Korea and Japan are having hard time to get along. So many demonstration against Japan are going on in Korea, and so many Japanese people look down on Korean people. However, the fact is they are neighbors, who share a lot of common cultures past and present, and to me there is no clue what they are fighting for nor why they hate each other. If I make some answers, maybe, they are fighting for nationalism, which still sounds cheap to me.

I want to go to the moon, watch the earth from there, and bring buck the idea that we human beings are all the same. We live on the same place. There are no points that we fight each other. That is why I have to go to the moon, or I have never been to the moon.

What would you write (and how would you write) if you knew that real live people would read that writing?

2005-09-01T12:45:00.000-04:00

This is a question which my professor questioned us. But I don't know. I can't really answer to this question because this "blog world" is not the same as the real world. Especially, since many people can read this without any constrains, you have to be sensitive to what you write in this world. And I don't know if I can be sensitive to while I express my feelings correctly.

To be honest, I am a person who does not keep my secrets in my mind. I always want to express my feelings or my thoughts to other people. And I just got to know that if I keep something wrong in my mind, I would become ill mentally and eventually, physically. I am not kidding. I am serious. I did happen to me a few months ago.

Oh I must not talk about what happened there... because this is the "blog world."

Thid world sucks. Modern life is rubbish. It's so complecated.

Before I start this blog thing, I have to make a bridge which connects the real world and this blog world, and become a dweller of this modern life...

Hello!

2005-09-01T12:28:00.000-04:00

Welcome to my blog! My name is Kaz. I just started this "blog," and I don't know what to write. Anyway, I will make this page an interesting one.

Nice to meet you!